So the Spanish field trip was pretty cool. But shit always tends to happen on bus rides: maybe it's because there's not enough room. Anyhow, I think I pissed some people off and I think I annoyed even more people. I feel shitty.

Pretty cool day. I had a fun time hanging out with Brian and Jordan and David for a while.

Tons of Homework

AP Psych and AP English. God this sucks. Oh well.

Silliness

Filmed an English project with some friends. It was pretty silly and fun. I still feel lonely.

Today Was Awful

Boring and uneventful. Have I stopped enjoying being with my family? Or was I never really "with" them? Regardless, today sucked. I wish I had stayed at home and hung out with friends.

Broken Phone

Darn Blackberries are always losing their track balls. I hope I don't come off as overeager or something. God I want to spend every second...

A bit of comfort or anxiety.

Every thought that I have thought has been thought by someone else. Every action that I've done has been done by someone else. Every opinion that I've had has been had by someone else. Every word that I've said has been said. Every thing I've seen had been seen. Every feeling has been felt. I am not unique in any sense of the word.

I feel foolish.

A Melancholy Day

Pretty much. Each brief encounter only leaves me more enamored and perplexed. Again with this silliness.

I want to write and listen to music and learn...

Not do stupid projects or tedious homework. I feel terribly guilty for something that was mostly out of my control. Maybe I take too much credit for things; maybe I'm narcissistic. That seems pretty narcissistic of me.

Reciprocation

Reciprocation. It's wonderful. Do you reciprocate? I hope that I do. The most I can ever wish for is that someone enjoys my presence and much as I enjoy theirs. That's not too much to ask, is it? I love being with my friends; I hope they love being with me too.

I'm leveling my Pupitar!

I had a fun little faux pas today: someone in Physics saw my Pokewalker and asked me what it was. Pretty cool stuff. Other than that I feel a bit invasive and overeager. I've quite a bit of work to do straight out of break. I don't like that.

Idonotwanttogoback.(I'm such a creeper)

Had an Open House today, it was pretty awful. At least people liked my room. I feel like Darth Vader: I'm having feelings that I haven't had in a long time. Oh well. School tomorrow, not good. I should have finished my projects...Fughettabowdit. I'm glad I could hang out with friends as much as I did over the break, although it was a sporadic and unpredictable break. I leave it a poorer, more pensive, and more persistent person, worse too.
I've been looking so long at these pictures of you...

Would you be lonely with me?

Holyshitholyshitholyshit. I just got back from a friend's house, and we accidentally broke his lamp...We did our best to make the damage unnoticeable, but I feel incredibly guilty. The day was fun, though, especially the morning...
I think all the lonely people in the world should keep each other from being lonely.

So. Do you ever think that you're narcissistic? I do. All the time. I think I am; I mean, only a narcissist would think he's narcissistic. Even having a blog is a bit narcissistic. But oh well. Do you ever wish you were better in any way? I wish my teeth were straighter; I wish I was better looking in general, but that's so unspecific, and everyone wishes that. What even goes in a blog? I don't know.
The skin underneath my ring is dieing. Huh.
I wonder how long until my Pupitar levels up...